I find myself asking this question each and everyday. And it’s exhausting….I have forgotten what it feels like to get up each morning and just get on with my day.
When you have bipolar you are forever critical of your behaviour, trying to tune in with your body and mind and asking yourself….how am I today….is there a change in my mood, what challengers will I face today.
Some days upon waking there is a foreboding feeling of anxiety, luckily this only lasts for a minute or two.
Other days you feel quite flat and start to wonder if you may be heading to a depressive state.
Forever wondering and questioning your behaviour is extremely frustrating.
Unfortunately the above is required to stay in tune with yourself and nip any extreme possible changes in your mood quickly to alleviate a full blown manic or depressive episode.
Am I ok I ask myself…..of course I am…..then I can get along on my day.